fix·ate
Pronounced: /ˈfɪkˌseɪt/
Function: verb
Meaning: to look at or think about something constantly: to give all of your attention to something
So in a nutshell that pretty much sums me up the past week and I do not like it. Fixate on what you ask?? Hmm……That’s easy because it’s the same topic(s) as before, however a little more intense. Against my own advice I am totally over analyzing stuff that I have zero control over and said I wouldn’t analyze.
I would guess alot of this has to do with running. I have about an hour every day, six days a week where my mind is totally numb and I’m isolated from life’s usual distractions. With the exception of music and focusing on my pace, there’s nothing there. Not sure if that is good or bad. It could be that my play list and route may be the trigger for a lot of this process. I may try running without music to see if that helps, but more than likely it will be worse.
I ran at the gym last night without issue for almost 90 minutes. That is my longest run to date. The distractions that running indoors at the gym provides are somewhat unique and incredible although it can totally overwhelm one’s senses. Sure beats the miserable suffering I have encountered in the past!
